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My ipod is fucking broken!!! It broke today, right before school starts, I need music to listen to for the long train rides. Damn! Damn! Damn!

I'm so bored...

I had work today from 5 to 10. Wesley came over for lunch and then he went down to the city for the rest of the day. We both had such a nice time when he was over and we said that we would see each other over at his house after I got out of work. I was all excited when I finally got out of work. When I got to his house, I like saw him for a second and he fell asleep. Every time I tried to wake him up, he'd fall back asleep. The same thing happend last night. Maybe I'm just being mean. Oh well. He's probably just tired.

School starts on Thurdsay. Wes is going to come with me to get my books tomm. I'm so happy I don't have to take the train all the way down to the Loop. He said he'll just wait in his car for me in front of the bookstore.

That's all for now. GoodNight!

Now it's my mom today...
I caught her looking through my garbage. I swear. When I asked her what she was doing, she was bitching for the way that I asking her, as if though I was talking back to her. I went to Woodfield today with her and on the way back she started saying that I should pay off my credit card and then start saving money. I told her, yes that I really need to work on that. Then she said that if she sees me buying anymore more clothes she'll send them away to my cousin in Poland. I snapped, I said "I am 21 years old, it is my money that I work for and I will do whatever I want with it." Then she bitched at me for the way I was talking to her. Ayyyy this woman. I never ever ask her for anything, nothing. And if I want to have a new dress because it is my friend's Birthfday and we are going out, then I will have a new dress because I worked for it. I really don't know why she does not understand. She's constantly buying my brother clothes, me nothing. Well she randomly bought me a dress a few weeks ago when I went shopping with her.

I want to kill my dad...
I can't stand him. The first thing he says when he comes home from work is why I didn't clean. First it was my mom bitching on Tuesday and now him. I help them clean and it's not like I leave my shit laying around. I told him that if he's telling me to clean then he should be bitching to my brother too b/c it's not fair that he got to go away to school and I have to be stuck here listening to them all the time. When I said my brother's name he told me to shut up and not to bring him up. Ahhhhh I swear, that makes me so angry, that boy is so spoiled!!!!!! Plus, it's so rude that my own dad tell me to shut up, geez, I swear I'm going to be haunted for the rest of my life by having Polish parents who yell at me constantly about cleaning.

Anywho, I bought the two seasons of THE O.C., they were only 18 bucks for a whole set at Sam's Club. Wes and I love watching it. Last night we stayed up till 3am staring into the TV. Usually any movie we rent or show we watch we pass out by 11, after an hour of watching. Tonight work till 10 then the O.C. at Wes' :0)

Wow!!! Wes should really start taking trips more often. When he came over yesterday :0) Oh JOY!!!!!!! We had a good time ;0) He brought me back Winnie the Pooh mittens and a Coach Ipod cover, it's cute it matches my Coach purse. I want to go tanning tomm. Yuck! I haven't been for the longest time. I also want to go to the mall and buy some cute tshirts and a good pair of jeans. I miss my Abercrombie jeans, they are the best fitting jeans I can find, my last ones I wore out, I couldn't sow the holes in them anymore. Back to school next week meaning stress, stress and more stress. I am not happy.

That's it for now... Peace

I'm bored...

My parents are annoying me. I don't want to sound selfish but my brother is so spoiled. He's moving out to U of I this Saturday. They are buying him all these nice things, a stainless steel fridge and microwave, new laptop and so on. They are setting him up with a bank account so that when he needs money he could just take it out of what my parents are going to be putting in for him. I know that this is normal to do for your kid if he is going away to school but when will it be my turn. And it's the little things too, for example I've been sitting on a wooden desk chair since my freshmen year in high school, my ass and my back hurts! Well I've asked for a new chair, my brother has a nice leather one that swirls, or cushions. Nope! Never got either. But I found a cushion downstairs in a bag by my brothers things for college, I asked my parents if it was for me. Nope! "For your brother". When we went to Wisconsin for a day this past Tuesday and when we went to the grocery store down there, my mom asked my brother "Do you want to get a bag of chips?" He said that he didn't want any. Then I asked her if I could get some chips, she said "No we have some in the car".
Later when we went out to dinner, my mom and I had to split something but she kept telling my brother to order the $20 meal versus the $8 sandwich that he wanted. Last night my brother was laying in his bed, with his lap-top, the internet connected. Me? nope my dad can't buy me long enough cord for me to lay in bed with my lap-top. Grrrr... I could keep going but I won't.

Anyways everything between me and Wes is fine. Wes had a lot of fun at Lucy's Birthday. I had a great time as well, it was awesome!!! We should re-celebrate! Wes, Chris, Nicole and I are going to Lake Geneiva?(is that how you spell it oops) Sunday through Tuesday, it should be fun. I think I'm going to buy myself a bottle of Level and some lemonade.

Friday night we went out to Sound-Bar for Nisha's cousins bachlorette/party (there were more guys part of the party than girls)

I was so anxious all day because Wes said that he didn't want to go out to the club. Towards the end of my shift at work I started feeling sick and was thinking of not going. I don't know why I get that way. When I was walking out Sam's Club, I had received a text from Wes asking if I was still going. I said yes and asked if he changed his mind about going. He did. Phew... I was so happy. When I got into his car, he said that he didn't really want to go, but he didn't want me to be sad. We had so much fun, his friends weren't there so we danced the entire time we were there with Mark, Yesha, Nisha and her cousins. It looked as though Wes had fun and it turned out that he went to school with some of Nisha's cousins too. I want to go out again! I can't wait for Lucy's b-day!

Text from Wes:

"Love is... what you put up with love you so much"

(It made my day)

I finally started working out Yay! I've been doing all sorts of stretches and crunches at home and I've been running at Prairie Lakes. The main body parts I want to focus on are my tummy (getting rid of my gut), love handles, my ass (oops) and my thighs. It'sonly been two days, but I'm feeling a lot better about myself. I really want to get a membership at the gym though, but money is so tight for me now. We'll see I'm tired of the weirdos working on the grass at the park staring at me. Some guy beeped his horn when I was walking to the park.

Anywho, I'm finally starting up with my birthday plans. I got everything set at Soundbar. The events coordinator, Nicole, emailed me very shortly after I sent her an email saying that I was intrested in having my party there. So it will be on Saturday July 22nd. Mention my name at the door to get in for free and 9 to 1030 open bar. I really want to get a SUV limo for like an hour so that it can drop us off there and so that we can pre-party in the limo. If it's $100 or something close to that range I will get it. Limos are so much fun and we never had one for prom.

Jess and Lucy what do you think of doing like a "black and white affair" thing? White and black outfits? I found this white dress that i really want to get.

Well that is it for now so far.

Last night was odd...

Well the whole club thing was okay. I met this really cool girl and I spent most of the night just talking to her, we had so much in common. I was looking at her for a bit and I noticed that she does the exact same thing I do, just stares off and daydreams no matter where she is at. But anyways, the club was empty and I was getting bored. I knew I was going to do this, I text Wes and I told him that I would take a cab to see him. And I did, I hailed a cab down all by myself for the first time ever and it felt cool. Wes was at Chris' so he wasn't too far away from the club. I felt really bad, the girl the I went with, Diana, was upset that I left early. I told her though I have to go, I miss him too much. So I went over to Chris' and then Wes and I left after about 30 minutes.

He was dropping me off at home and we started arguing. It wasn't really arguing, it was more like finally talking. I finally told him thatI want to start moving faster and start taking things more seriously. I told him that he is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I told him that I was not able to keep up with all the partying anymore, that I want him to start getting more serious. That I wanted to start talking more about things that really matter, like what his future plans are. Well the good thing was that I did not scare him away, but I did get him finally to open up. He apologized for all the bad things that have happened, that they were and are caused by his own insecurities. It was good for him to finally admit that, I know that there are so many things going on his head that it is difficult for him to trust anyone and be sure about anything. But he said that he is sure about one thing and that is that he loves me.

P.S. No more clubbing without him :-)